My dating lesson at 17

Dating means setting out time to spend with someone you’re interested in, to get to know them more. Or at least, that’s what it should be.

I don’t know much about relationships and dating, but I stepped in and I think I messed up. Firstly, I met this guy and a week later, i agreed to be his girlfriend – who does this 🤦.

I didn’t like this person enough to kiss him anyway. And I haven’t had my first kiss yet. I’m saving it and I’m afraid that I’d have it with someone and then regret it- it’s just a kiss and shouldn’t be a biggie yeah? But I am me.

~Found out dating can be physically, financially, mentally and socially draining. And while I’ve heard of ‘casual dating’, it’s not my thing. I’m a ‘If I have to do this, I have to have a vested interest in it’ person. My experience was rubbish, but I am consoling myself with the -!First times are not usually bliss!

If you’re not ready for the work, don’t engage. Good thing i didn’t lose anything in the relationship i had. But then, there’s the fact that I’ve dated someone and I now have an ex🤢.

Remember when i said i love fiercely? I think i lost those powers when i finally told my crush how i felt after four years. It was unrequited. And not that i regret doing that, it freed me actually. I knew better and I wasn’t even really into the guy I was “dating” as much as I know myself to be when I’m ‘in love’, if not, mehn 💔. Damn.

We didn’t see eye to eye on a lot of things and I wonder how I got into a relationship with him in the first place. I think this guy generally wasn’t a good person. He was a manipulative gaslighter and I was naive(still am), and giving him ‘benefits of the doubts’ almost ruined me.

Moral of the story

Adding this just in case you got tired of reading my gibberish. Dating is a beautiful thing. I love love. But i think there’s more to it than meets the eye. It’s not as cut and dry as people make it seem. There’s more. So if you’re not ready for the cringes and foil sickness and unnecessary tears and drama it comes with, just focus on other things. This is from my own little but significantly terrible experiences.
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